Live,learn,Love & Laugh-ALOT!

I have met so many beautifull spirits in my life's journey to date...most have overcome various difficultties with a positive attitude.Trying to stay positive in a negative world is not always easy,but is possable.It takes hard work,determination & alot of patience,to name a few traits needed in life & living.The biggest thing i have had to overcome is the loss of loved one's . ... .77,88,99,04,08,09...anyone else see a patern here?Or is it just me?lol...live,love,learn & laugh-ALOT!We all have to deal with death sooner or later.For myself i am of the opinion that its just another door-way...Positivly Speaking...sounds like a great name of a documentary eh?Speaking of documentarys the march of the monarch butterfly is a ok,Home is another good 1.Good storys abound online...free at that!So whynot expand your horizens and settle down to a good doc or 2.PEACE N LOVE NOT WARS N WALLS EH FOLKS!!!

Universal Testing & Treatment Needed Now NOT Later!

If we want to stop this disease from spreading we need to test all people,everywhere,& treat all folks free of charge!But big pharma will not allow this unless they make from it.No money in a cure but lots in treatments right?Sometimes i wonder if we really do need those toxic meds after all!Positive thinking can go along way,but love can go further!

Back to Work/School

Well life never ceases to amaze me,throwing trials & tribulations that have now turned into some good oportunity's pour moi.I have a good chance at getting the CBR job i applied for 2 months ago now,and i am just waiting to hear from a couple of folks before i send off my referrals...This is where i make,or break,this job.I would like to get Dr Sandre,but i am not sure if he would do it.I haven't treated him good at all.Back when i was useing i even grabbed & threatened him.He still took me back for a patient!This guy has saved many lives,& although i do not agree with him on certain pot issue's,i think he is a good man.A good referral from him would almost certainly make the position mine...I would love to be working again,& doing this would not be like a job for me...as i like doing this type of work...this would make me feel like a contributeing member of society once again!THANK-GOD!!!He works in such wonderous ways!Just for today i am so very gratefull that i am clean,and getting closer to serene with each & every day that passes.My fear of death is slowly leaving as well...a good thing when your HIV+!Living with this disease is not always easy!Its other peoples reactions that are the hardest part to deal with-so,if you can get past that,then it should get much better for you in telling you story....

Breaking your silence & telling others of your thoughts & feelings can be such a relief!~Stress's & stressor's start to come down,although at times it can get much worse before it starts to get much better...maybe it has to do with how far youve gone downhill?Making the climb back up all the harder!Bring it on!GOD i thank YOU so very much!Life is getting even better now....and i can live with that.Peace n love not wars n walls eh folks!!!

Back to Work/School

Well life never ceases to amaze me,throwing trials & tribulations that have now turned into some good oportunity's pour moi.I have a good chance at getting the CBR job i applied for 2 months ago now,and i am just waiting to hear from a couple of folks before i send off my referrals...This is where i make,or break,this job.I would like to get Dr Sandre,but i am not sure if he would do it.I haven't treated him good at all.Back when i was useing i even grabbed & threatened him.He still took me back for a patient!This guy has saved many lives,& although i do not agree with him on certain pot issue's,i think he is a good man.A good referral from him would almost certainly make the position mine...I would love to be working again,& doing this would not be like a job for me...as i like doing this type of work...this would make me feel like a contributeing member of society once again!THANK-GOD!!!He works in such wonderous ways!Just for today i am so very gratefull that i am clean,and getting closer to serene with each & every day that passes.My fear of death is slowly leaving as well...a good thing when your HIV+!Living with this disease is not always easy!Its other peoples reactions that are the hardest part to deal with-so,if you can get past that,then it should get much better for you in telling you story....

Breaking your silence & telling others of your thoughts & feelings can be such a relief!~Stress's & stressor's start to come down,although at times it can get much worse before it starts to get much better...maybe it has to do with how far youve gone downhill?Making the climb back up all the harder!Bring it on!GOD i thank YOU so very much!Life is getting even better now....and i can live with that.Peace n love not wars n walls eh folks!!!

No Job Fo Joe,Permenent Place For HIV-AIDs Gatherings

So ya i didn't get the job i applied for in Toronto but that does not surprise me,as i knew i had blown my interview with the transportation question...like how was i supposed to get back n forth...bus or hitch a ride doesn't sound solid enough or something that you can afford to count on.That's really too bad as i was really hoping to get this position.Guess it was not meant to be after all right folks...the other position i applied for i haven't heard anything back so That's a right off as well.Dam,getting back into the workforce is alot harder then i thought.Well looks like its back to school for this guy....

Now that i am Little down i may as well talk about the HIV-AIDs Candle light Memorial.We do not have any place here in sudbury to hold these each yr. and so its always a dif place.I am hoping to get 1 created here in sudsbury so we can have a place to hold this event each yr. & to write down the names of all the peoples that have died in sudbury from HIV-AIDs & related causes such as cancer.A giant red ribbon perhaps...not sure but we should have a place like this along time ago now.Access Aids Sudbury should have its own building & not be paying rent for yrs.Better to be paying for a Morgage then to just be paying rent.I wish i could do the same...hard to get anything done though when your alone.I guess i am just going to try going back and doing some upgrading for now...a busy guy is a healthy guy...k well i hope you all have a great summer.Its been an other cool 1 this yr here in sudbury.Peace n love not wars n walls eh folks!!!

Living with HIV-Isreali's Please STOP!!!

Ya so todaY is my birthday,& i feel old.Isreal is attacking the Gaza strip which it surrounds-leaving no where for thousands of refugee's to flee.Innocent lives are being lost-this attack must cease at once,or the whole middle east is in jepardy of falling into war.It seems mankind is bound & determined to destroy himself along with his neighbors.Today i pray for peace in troubld place & peoples.Its like the whole world is going crazy-Isreal is attacking UN Flag positions-WTF?Y do we just sit by & allow this to happen?i HOPE THEY DO NOT GET UPSET WHEN IT IS THEIR TURN-PAYBACK IS A BITCH RIGHT? Well it seems they are long over due for some kind of payback-kiling a thousand peoples must have repercussians & CANNOT go unpunished.I leave it to GOD to punish the Isreali's,he has been doin it long enough already!PEACE LOVE & HAPPINESS TO ALL !!!.So i wasn't feling good all day today-6,jerry stopped by & then later on my son came to visit me for abit,wished me happy birthday which was nice of him.I have been stuck in a depression for a month now & still do not know how to break out of it.I want to start excercising & buy a 300 workout set-i need a ride though,as it's all the way out at walmart.I cannot carry it by myself & setting it up will require alittle help from someone.My HIV support group meeting is tomorrow & the top item on the agenda is the fact that we are losing our food vouchers.What a thing to lose especially when times are just starting to get alot harder.What can u do eh?PEACE LOVE & HAPPINESS TO ALL!!!

Not feeling Well-Not a Happy Birthday-Isreal Launches ground Attack on Hamas Leaders in Palistine

So ya today is the 5 & my birthday is tomorrow,but i feel sick & i am not up to anything at all except laying in my bed & feeling depressed & old.watching the TV & slowly watching life go by me,wondering all the while why i am feeling alone & lost.My hope is in GOD & Jesus Christ-they have brought me this far surley they have something for me to do as of yet i still dont know wat it is though.Clean now 5 yrs.Hmm wow eh!Time flies when yer watching life go by,actually it drags but as u age a funny thing happens & time seems to speed up just when you want it to slow down!I regret so many things i have said,&done,that i don't even know where to start!This is the coldest winter in a long time & it came early as well making it a long,cold winter.OIL prices will rise yet again,as demand increases.Y is it always the poorest that get caught up & suffer due to other's neglect?GOD help us in these coming months,& speed this Jan along!PEACE N LOVE FOLKS,NOT WARS N WALLS EH!!!ps. Isreali's have launched an attack against palistinian Hama's leaders & as many as 500 palistinians have been killed-mostly civlian casualties....Canada has called for immediate cease fire but sadly this will not happen soon enough-my fear is the start of the 3 world war-it has come that far-or close-depending on how u view it.